|Sleepless night thinking about love!|
After returning back to DC, one of the first things I had on my to-do list was to find a boyfriend. I know priorities, priorities, but honestly being alone has never been my thing and I have been alone for quite some time. Moving around for the past two years and not being in any one place long enough to form a lasting connection with anyone has been my biggest obstacle. Since I now had made the decision to stay put, I figured why not. I tried my hand at the normal dating scene, bars, parties, events, but anyone who knows anything about DC life knows it’s always politics here and that makes it very difficult to make honest connections with people. One night while I’m out with friends I meet this girl who found the guy she was with on OK Cupid. She seemed happy and he seemed cool, so I figured I’d try my hand and it and see where it leads.
Immediately upon joining OK Cupid, I get an inbox filled with guys who are beyond tacky. This only added to my frustration! Just when I was about to delete my account I was contacted by this guy who was like “we have a lot in common.” I looked and, indeed, according to our Q&As we were a 91% match. This seemed promising but he didn’t have any good pics where I could tell if he was hot or not. I was a bit hesitant but, being that I’ve never been the girl to put looks first in dating I thought, “Oh well why not.” I returned his message and after chatting a bit we soon set a date to meet at one of my favorite dive bars, Red Derby. It was an instant connection and yes he was a cutie which was icing. What really got me was that he was a huge Sci-Fi nerd like me, he was secular, and we had similar politics and tastes. Plus, he even drove my dream car (Bumblebee). We saw each other the next day, and the next. Before we knew it we had practically spent an entire 3 days together, neglecting everything else we had going on.
Everything was going well until I he put on the brakes and was like hold on I have stuff to do. Now, of course, I had stuff to do too but I didn’t care I was head over heels in like. I was on a high and I didn’t want to come down. This disappointment led to insecurity, insecurity led to frustration, frustration led to fear…the path to the dark side had begun. Winter was coming!!!